I did want to post a little bit though. I have been trying to be a better mother. I want to enjoy my children, discipline them with love more than with frustration and be happy for them, because let's face it, mom's attitude affects the home's attitude.
Two events in particular have really pushed me to focus on myself and how I am around my boys.
I keep hearing about stories of missing children, or children who are caught up in an adults world. It breaks my heart when children are part of a political disagreement. They are so sweet an innocent and yet we push our biased and hateful or angry views on them. There are too many sad stories in the news concerning children. I just want to hold my little ones close and let them know they are loved.
The other incident was on Sunday. I was stressed because I was teaching a lesson and I just didn't feel up to do anything that day. G walked in and grabbed a picture I keep on my desk of Tristan and I. He pointed at me in the picture and said "Happy Mama." Then he pointed at me and said "Sad Mama." Boy, I felt bad. It's time I check my attitude more often.
And one more thing if you're still reading. It helps to write this down just to get it off my chest. I keep praying that in certain situations I will stand up for my children and they will know they can count on their mom. I was never good at standing up for myself, or really anyone or thing for that matter. I am so scared of what people think and I certainly don't want to draw attention to myself. When I am successful though, I feel awesome! It's so easy for some people, and I want to be that way. Especially for my kids. Today I failed. I'm trying not to beat myself up over it. Next time I hope to do better.
More posts soon! With PICTURES!!! :)
2 comments:
Oh, tug at your heart! That would make me so sad if Evan did that...I'm sure there are plenty of days he could have. don't beat yourself up about it- it's hard to be happy 24/7 when we're so sleep deprived:) You are a great momma. If it makes you feel any better...Evan was praying about "mommy's headaches" the other night cause lately I've had a lot and I just close my eyes and when he wants to play I've had to say- "No, Mommy has a headache" How awful is that?! But a mom's gotta do what a mom's gotta do:) We do our best!
Thanks for the invitation! You know, I think every mom can relate to this post. One thing I a so thankful for is how forgiving and resilient kids are. I think God made it like that so that kids wouldn't disown their parents before they turn 3 or 4 :-)
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